Jessica Danielle

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Tomorrow I start my new school. Its a night school so I go there from 3-7 four days a week, and im so happy.
I want nothing to do with my old school
NOTHING.
:-D

For all of my adoring fan's out here, Let me just say that I changed my userinfo page and put a huge picture of my face on it. :0) yes thats right, i was being vain and i loved every second of it. Although its not a very good picture of me, it's still me and uhh hellooooo?





its funny how there's really people out there like that. My friend's like that sje's grosssssss. :-):0)

update

I saw Jarhead.
He didnt let me down.
Hooray.

It's so funny how my last entry was how "amazing" my boyfriend was. Im so sick of empty promises. "yeah..we're gonna go to the movies Jess, I proomise." That started about 4 weeks ago, and guess what I havent gone to do? Last night we made plans to go see jarhead and after i take a shower and get all dressed and ready and call him, he's like "i had a really bad day and im really tired, i dont want to tonight." FINE whatever thats just another dissapointment in my day, no biggie. then he informs me that actually he's to tired to do anything at all, he's not gunna hang out with his friends tonight or anything.. thats FINE then im not as dissapointed as i would be if he was ditching me for his friends..right?

yeah well guess what, just another lie in the day of jp lynch.
he "swoore" tonight we're going to the movies & ive had it up to the fuckin' roof with this shit so if we dont go, its over.
its gunna hurt a lot but im sure it will be worth it

My boyfriend broke up with me saturday night. I was being the typical girl and was being a bitch because i didnt want to be somewhere, and asked him to drive me home. He flipped out, and broke up with me.
We talked monday night, and he told me he loved me and all of that
and we kissed and it seemed that we were back together

He said that we woul talk more last night
and we didnt. he keeps sorta blowing me off
this is so fucked up.


today i wanted to end the fuckin' games so i went to his house instead of school and he was holding my hand and kissing me and shit
but when i left
i said i love you

and he was like what
and i was like i love you
he said "dont say that.."


i seriously am like dying. ok
juts for anybody to know if i never write another entry
its because i died of incredible pain.
ok? byebyee.

Breast Lump Removal Surgery - Thursday.



now that right there, ladies and gentlemen is what i call...


fun.

I think that this is my last LJ entry, or it will be for a long time.
My 17th birthday is in 2 hours.
Peace & Love bitches

amore♥
Jess83532-AIM sn(~keep in touch)

Japanese Gum - - - - Her Space Holidays

I used to know this girl
Who gave her love away
To every guy she met
And with all the games they played
She never seemed to cry
She never got upset
And one by one they came
And one by one they left
I thought that I could fix her
If she would let me in
But all of my advances
Were shut down in the end
When days turned into months
I begged her to explain
And this is what she sang

It's not like I'm a slut
Or that I really like to fuck
I just want every boy I see
To walk away with part of me
Until there's nothing left to hold
Until there's nothing left to hate
I appreciate your help
But even you can't save me from myself

I used to know this boy
Who took notes in a book
But he ripped out all the pages
Before I got a look
At all the words he scribbled
At all the lines he filled
But the ink stains on his fingers
Told me he was skilled
At capturing a feeling
That most of us just miss
The simple pain of living
With goodbyes on our lips
I found one of the pages
Crumpled by her bed
And this is how it read

It's not like I am weak
Or that I don't know how to leave
It's just that every time you cheat
You bring me closer to defeat

Until there's nothing left to love
Until there's nothing left to say
I know that you need help
But even I can't save you from yourself

i went to the city today, and on the way my boyfriend flipped out on me
we havent talked since 1 in the afternoon, yet i was with him untill 8 tonight.

but he has no problem flirting with other girls

you are my everything
isnt he cute? even tho he looks cracked out

It's summer right now, all done with testing and all of that jazz. I've been pretty busy, Jp's father went away for a week so it was all fun and games over there except for the fight's but even they end good. I'm honestly happier then i've ever been before so everythings really well. I'm also not going back to school next year, i'm actually going to a night program @ GO. so it will be mondays - thursdays 3-7. That makes me really happy too. My job at mountain creek water park isnt much fun though i must say. Ive turned into bitch lifegaurd. Dont go on my ride, it will not be fun. I just dont have patience for people i dont think. At least i can admit im a big bitch. But seriously people, if i tell you not to run down a rapidy ride and to just sit on ur tube...PLEASE EXPLAIN TO ME WHY YOU WOULD DO IT then they fall off and get hurt and i just dont really care, u know? I hope everybodys well, I'm off to make some pasta since im starving. PcNLV. hahahh ew.

so i'm grounded due to my lack of going to classes. I'm grounded for 7 days...it's been 3 & I'm already goin out of my mind! Tomorrow I have permission to see my boyfriend for an hour, thank god..he's gunna be the hardest not to see. I've grown too dependent on him. I havent not hung out with him one single day for about a month. I love him. DUN DUN DUN who woulda thought i'd say that again ey? I've realized how i went about my first love/heartbreak was stupid. I just told myself i'd never like someone else again, but i obviously would, and by being bitter and never trying to have a relationship, and even pushing ppl away was stupid. Now i'm happier then i've ever been with that first love of mine. JP treats me so good, and a lot of people when they see us dont think he does. He's just got his issues, and i've got mine. He's the absolute best. mmmm. Super happy now. :-)


but yeah, 12 days of school and if i dont go to all of them i get my car taken away, even the insurance canceled. Schools such a burden, ya knoww?
Well ok i just wanted to update to have something to do
peace gangsta's.

$153
owe $ for bag spotting: -15
$138
Gas money. On E: -20
$118
Car Insurance: -30
$88
ahh what a rip off!
Ticket for driving after 9?
back to $0

So i took a TON of pictures of my prom and only these came out :-( it was too dark in there for a digital camera i guess...

( Prom )

my boyfriend will not engage in sexual relations with me.

happpyyy 4 20. everyone celebrate righhht now!!

i know, i sure as hell am...have been...oh whatever. pEACE

You know when your doing something, which isnt good and your just digging yourself deeper and deeper into the hole that could easily cave in on you & you know the risks involved but cant stop.




Houston, We've got a problem.♥

believe you're who you are
and stay in character
but at the end of the play the audience walks away
and you'll be a shivering cold on a well lit stage.

First night of spring break was yesterday, although it snowed. Go figure. Well i went to my baby ninettes house and we played beer pong with a shitload of people, and then we find out her step mom isnt coming home so we have the house to ourselves the whole night. So we had a good time, there werent that many ppl there 15 or so. Of fucking amazing people ♥ The right crowd to be with. Unfortunatly, ninettes boyfriend had to start with me again, which he does everytime we drink together. Its like a ritual, We fight every time we drink but I do love the kid. But he wound up making me cry by saying how I like rape Mike. Mike was upstairs sleeping fortunatly. But i just started to cry when he said it and went to the bathroom. And The boys that were there, Wrote me the fucking sweetest thing :

Dear Jessica Your the bestica
You are the beautiful princess of my ♥
I knew you were a beautiful princess from the start
Jess, I'm mean to you with the finger and what not
byt i like you a lot and im just joking because i think
YOUR HOT! SUPERCALAFRACLO, To's night was almost tragic but its magic
DUDETT. That was from dylan, I kinda couldnt understand the end but thats what i got. Damn drunk writing.

Jess i just want to let you know that i think you are a very awesome girl and you are very fun to party with and im sorry if i ever hurt your feelins, if it were you any cooler, Id measure you with a ruler That was john.
JESSIE im sorry that your sad, Talk to him. Trust me, the outcome is better than you think. Sorryy love you- andrew

JESS ROCKS!!!! ♥s Zach

they sang me the whole letter outside the bathroom while i was crying which made me cry even harder. This is what friendship is about, Good night with Good ass people. I love them all too much.. <3